Take Care Mode
Last night I got home from the gym, and kind of took stock AGAIN with everything that has happened.
I am consistently amazed at my current predicament. We are taught that if we work hard, and are dedicated, we will succeed. I worked SUPER hard. It’s all here in this blog, lots of workouts, lots of choices made to support my efforts. I was starting to see results.
Well. I was feeling pretty icky. Life is not fair. Currently I have several friends dealing with injuries/illnesses that are far worse than mine. Career limiting for some, and recreation limiting for others, and possibly life limiting for more. There was a historic storm that devastated the Phillipines this week. Knowing this really did not make me cheerful, or feel much better, but it does help me to see things along a spectrum.
I hung around for a much longer than normal time with my coach last night, as he is doing therapy on my friend, so it is more acceptable for me to be in that area. I was pleased that I could focus out on my friend a bit, even though I felt entirely selfish because while I was talking to her about her difficult situation, a track was running in the back of my head about mine. I do think this is the way many of us operate…and I’m not so sure that there is anything wrong there. I saw her today and we talked some more. I’m just glad that my issue didn’t take away from my ability to listen to someone else, even if I was not the best listener.
He must have known that because he was very available to me. He didn’t treat me as a delicate fleur, but he was definitely available. For most of the week, I admit, I was a little bit self absorbed, and miserable. I know it wasn’t fun to be around, so more to his credit.
But I also know that I just have to get through this, and it does appear that I am on the tail end of the worst of it. I anticipate starting to run again next week a little. The funny thing is that this hurt SO much this week, that I was really starting to dread any kind of movement, so it seemed much more serious than it was….the pain was not the pains I am used to….those chronic type pains creep in and settle…making life difficult but this was an acute..red..pain…It hurt to move the hip around, I never wanted to move after I got settled. Now, at the end of the week, I’m entirely able to move with little to moderate pain. I was able to climb stairs.
So, now it’s up to me to take care of myself a bit. After I realized that I was just desperately seeking some comfort, I kind of shook my head and decided to stop that immediately. My coach is really super great, but he is not a psychotherapist. I have good healing started. My pain is well controlled. I did everything I was supposed to today… Stretched, Foam rolled, swam. Got a lot of walking in at work, due to an extreme work crisis.
I did a bit of running in the parking lot when I got off work, like 0.10 of a mile. I noted that the Adductor area of the hip is still SUPAH tight and stiff. So I backed right off that and did the regular workout.
I gotta do my own self care, and my poor long suffering coach, Mr. Billy Goat Gruff Skeletor…I gotta give him a break too.
I hope to be back running by Monday. If not…I really get to suck it up!